I was reminded yesterday (thanks, Kate) how much I like to write, and how much I miss it. My photography is still over at my business site, http://www.msstudios.net, but I thought I would dust off this old site for some of my long forgotten ‘musings’ that have been bouncing around in my head for years longing to find their way into print.
I fell in love with him for many reasons, but the one that stands out to me the most was that he saw me when it seemed no one else did. I was shy, and quiet, and unsure, and uncomfortable in my own skin then. It was like I didn’t exist until he walked into the room, glanced my way, or spoke to me – even if it was to say something ugly. When he acknowledged me in some way, in any way, that’s when I would come alive. He was like the spot of color in a black and white photograph. When things were right between us, the air was sweeter, food tasted better, and everything just felt ‘more’. Loving and being loved by him defined who I was.
Don’t get me wrong, I had interests of my own, but I was perfectly content to push them aside to put him first and be at his beck and call. If my friends or interests bothered him I would simply relegate engaging them to only those times when he was not around. It was just easier than fighting about it and risk losing him. The fear of him leaving was far greater than my desire to maintain or obtain anything else. Little did I know ‘I’ was among the things I was not maintaining. I’ve heard women say that they lost themselves in a relationship before but the thing about that phrase that I didn’t fully grasp is that not only do you lose who you are at that moment, you risk losing who you might have become.
Like I said, I was more than happy to just take care of him. It did make me happy. I didn’t feel like I was losing anything, and I am convinced I would have gone on doing it until the day I died. Except, obviously, that’s not how things worked out or you wouldn’t be reading this.
I loved him because he saw me when I was invisible… but I’m not invisible anymore.
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The first of the 2 part shoot was held on the campus of Lamar University where she is graduating with her RN, see here. For this session, we rented a fabulous studio in the Heights (Houston), with exposed brick and stunning light, where we cranked up her favorite tunes and had a grand time. You’re not limited to a particular geographic area with Ms. Studios, being a South Texas Photographer, we are happy to serve a variety of areas and we love to travel!
I asked Taylor, as I do most of my female clients, “what makes you fierce?” I loved her response, “I’m fierce because I am confident.” I don’t know about you, but I see her confidence in every one of these images. Her confidence, her playful side, her softness, and her #FiercelyFeminine side – all rolled into one amazing young woman – came out in this shoot.
I love Taylor’s reason for wanting to do this glamour session because it epitomizes the mission of Ms. Studios, “empowering women through the art of photography.” She wanted to do this session for HER, she didn’t do it for anyone else, she did it to celebrate HERSELF and her success. I am honored and delighted that she allowed me to capture this time in her life and to help her tell her story.
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Easter is a bittersweet time for me. It’s an important and joyous holiday for all Christians as we celebrate the risen Christ and His victory over death. Death could not hold Him and it has no power over me either because He paid the price for my sin. I, and my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, have been washed clean by the blood of the Lamb.
It is said that, ‘justice’ is getting what you deserve, ‘mercy’ is not getting what you deserve, and ‘grace’ is getting what you don’t deserve. As a child of God, I have been given the ultimate gift of His holy grace. Christ was crucified and died to give me, and you, that gift of grace. There is no greater blessing.
Christ is not the only great man that died on Easter weekend. Unlike Christmas, Easter doesn’t always fall on the same day each year. I can’t tell you what day Easter fell on in 1998; my memory of that weekend is full of holes. I have only spotty recollections of moments here and there from that time. I remember a call from my sister-in-law, I remember singing ‘Torn’ with Tina as she drove me from… from somewhere to the church with a detour around the ‘Y’, and I remember saying goodbye to the greatest man whoever loved me.
While there isn’t a day that passes that I don’t think of him and miss him terribly, I take solace in knowing that my beloved daddy was also a blessed child of God and because of that he was a recipient of that gift of grace as well; death holds no power over him either. He too lives and I rejoice in knowing that he is with the Father and one day I will see him again.
I love being a photographer, capturing precious memories for people and freezing moments in time, but there is one aspect of photography that I love more than the rest and that is being a Boudoir photographer.
Every woman deserves to feel confident and beautiful but all too often we’re so busy taking care of everyone else that we forget to take care of ourselves. It’s hard to feel beautiful when you’re exhausted from nursing a sick family, or putting in 60 hours on the job, or BOTH!
I love the dichotomy that women can be both fierce and feminine. There is nothing more beautiful than a #FiercelyFeminine woman, but when she’s in the middle of fighting her battles she feels battle weary and war worn, anything but beautiful. I love helping women remember how beautiful they are by making their outside match their inside and allowing them to see themselves the way I see them. Make no mistake; I am not ‘making’ them beautiful. These women are already beautiful. I’m just reminding them that there is beauty in their strength, and that they should carry themselves with the confidence of the #FiercelyFeminine creature that they are.
The stunning, Ms. K was not immune to this conundrum. She is a wife, mother of four, a supportive friend, and she holds down a day job. She is, to me, as beautiful as they come. Deep down she knows her strength and beauty aren’t tied to external trappings but her fierceness was waning and she recognized the empowering value in getting it back. She needed to, as Barney Stinson would say, “suit up” and find that #FiercelyFeminine creature that still resided within. I think she did!
I love ‘Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep’, I love the families we photograph, and I love my team of *Rock Star* volunteers who serve alongside me. I’m proud to be an Area Coordinator for such an amazing organization, with an awesome team, in one of the greatest cities in the U.S.
Webster’s defines a ‘volunteer’ as a person who performs a service willingly and without pay. Our volunteers are so very important; we simply couldn’t exist without them. They give their heart, time, and talent, taking time away from their own families, to come to the aide of complete strangers on the spur of the moment. And the only compensation they get is the reward of knowing that they have given a family a priceless treasure. Knowing that is most definitely a beautiful thing, don’t get me wrong, but this work takes an emotional toll on the volunteers and their families and that must be acknowledged. No one can truly understand what it takes to do this kind of work except another volunteer so I feel it’s important to give them opportunities to connect with one another.
I’m a relatively new Area Coordinator still, I’ve only held the position for less than ten months, so I’m still kind of ‘charting my course’. I set several goals for myself, but one of the most important to me was to make sure my team felt loved, heard, and appreciated for all their hard work. To that end, last month I held an ‘appreciation dinner’ for them. I reserved the private room at a local pub and decorated it with balloons and little pails filled with candies in NILMDTS blue. We had a great turnout, only a few couldn’t make it.
When they arrived I bought everyone’s first drink and some appetizers for them to munch on. Most had encountered each other on our local Facebook page but had never actually met in real life. There were hugs all around. We had dinner, we shared stories, we covered a little bit of business, we connected like only people who have ‘been there’ too can, and we laughed, and we laughed, and we laughed. A great time was had by all. Oh, and I managed to snag enough door prizes from local businesses – ranging from a small gift certificate with a high-end salon to a $100 gift card from a print shop – that everyone went home with something. And everyone won the right gift for them, it was utterly uncanny… the pregnant volunteer who can’t see her feet anymore won the salon GC and can now get a pedicure, the assistant who is working her way up to photographer won a free class at the local photography school, etc. It was a totally random draw, but everyone got exactly what they needed. I love it when things like that happen!
I intend to have appreciation type social events at least twice a year, once in the summer and again around the holidays. For the holiday social, our families that we have served will be invited as well so that we can see them again under better circumstances and they can share their journey with other families who are on the same path. We will honor their angel babies, support our families, and celebrate our volunteers.
In addition to appreciation which is a big part of retention, recruitment was another goal of mine and our team is growing by leaps and bounds. We’ve more than doubled the size of the team by going from 5 photographers and 0 assistants, to 9 photographers and 5 assistants (all of whom wish to work their way up to photographer). And as of this writing, I have 4 more potential photographers and 1 more assistant whose applications are pending. We have a relatively new and amazing orientation program now to get them fully trained and started on the right foot. This gives them an opportunity to address any questions and/or concerns they may have and helps them to feel confident well in advance of their first session. I’m proud to say everyone on my team has gone through the orientation with flying colors and I’ve gotten nothing but great feedback on it. They all have said that, even though they had read the materials and watched the training videos, they feel like they were much more prepared to actually take a session after the in-person orientation. Such a small investment of my time on the front end gives them a much greater chance of success and our team a much greater chance of retenetion. I’m so lucky to work with absolutely amazing people that I respect and admire.
Like I said at the beginning, I love this organization, I love our families, and I love our volunteers, and since they are the lifeblood of this organization, it’s vitally important to me that they know how much I appreciate them. I’m so glad they had a good time at our event, I definitely did (as I think you can see by the huge grin on my face). Here is (some of) my team and these are some of the smiling faces that I work with and adore. Jennifer D., Chelsea, Cassie, Jennifer H., Karen, Brandi, Jená, Jesse, Ryan, Melissa, Tawnya, Holly, and Kati… you are a blessing to the families we serve and my life is richer for knowing you!